destination unknown

the kids after church

apparently i did not know what i was talking about when i posted that matt was going to start talking to transition companies. he said he was. maybe he had every intention of doing so. he did not. it also turns out that the places that we have discussed moving to are confidential. in truth, chicago is more my dream than his. but in all fairness, he is as adamant about not moving to utah as i am. at least, he is in the privacy of our own home. i have lovingly agreed to not verbally rule out any places. i have no control over my inner monologue. which is screaming "don't ever go back to utah! you will never escape!" i can tell when matt has talked to ben too much because he tries to talk himself into the idea of utah. he'll say things like, "what if the best opportunity is in utah?" and "what if that is the only opportunity?" and so i say in a very non-hysterical tone, "i thought you said that if you specialized we could go anywhere?" to which he has no response. caught ya.

on to more pressing matters. like church softball. we spent our saturday playing softball at the franklin park. it shocks me how many people do not own baseball gloves. granted mine is a red softball glove autographed by darryl strawberry, but i do have one. i have had it since middle school. it is soft and dirty and wonderful. it tastes like dirt and leather and sweat. not that i have tasted it recently. cooper did and he told me. and softball is a great sport. if you were good as a kid, you will still be good as an adult, albeit an out of shape one. i am floored by how many people don't understand the timing. the ball is in front of you and you swing. it's as simple as that. when the guys played they used the balls with the foam core and so it barely got out of the infield. that made for some pretty exciting games. the kids are doing great. they start school next monday (choir of angels singing in the background). they're really excited to get going and i'm excited to have some one on one time with becks. he's getting so big and it's going so fast. he is a love. he thinks his brother is great and hasn't quite figured out pain. she's quite bossy so i can't imagine he's too hot on her. but she's pretty freaking cute, so who really cares?

a rare moment with pain and becks